Two Months

It is hard to believe that today marked two months since Heidi's passing. In some ways it seems like just yesterday she was here and we were sharing life together, creating memories as a family and working together to make life a bit better. It seems like yesterday that she started to decline rapidly in health and then peacefully slip away. It seems like yesterday that we remembered her life and faith in the  funeral. And yet life has marched on and in other ways it seems like forever since we have felt her radiant and joyful spirit bless our life. Forever since she took care of all the organizational details she excelled at. Forever since my life felt complete. It is indeed amazing that her passing can seem soon and so long ago all at the same time.

Many have asked how we as a family are doing. We are doing well. The kids are enjoying summer, little responsibility and lots of time to play. We are adjusting to the new normal without Heidi and feel so blessed we were able to prepare for this time long ago, with Heidi's thoughts and guidance. The kids have especially adapted well. They miss the influence, assistance, and love from Mom, but are bolstered by knowing that we, Heidi and I, know that her passing was the will of the Lord and the children have accepted that also. They also comment on how happy Mom must be now that she is no longer feeling the pain and suffering from the cancer. All four are a true blessing to me and I am grateful to have them.

I again would like to thank each and every family member, friend and church member that has helped us, supported us, and prayed for us. Your efforts have meant so much, have helped so much, and have truly been the balm of Gilliad for us. Though I may at times not show as much gratitude as I ought, forgive me, I do appreciate every gesture, every thought on our behalf.